Reality - Epilogue of the short series of stories about a child's path to manhood

Nothing Nathan made changed the tides of what was ment to happen. All he did was useless, but he learned a great deal of experience and a new look of the world. As he moved across the lonely train he remembered all of what he had ever felt for her, and felt a lot of sorrow. He felt the universe was with him and against him at the same time, as everything he experienced made him suffer but taught him a lot about life and it's maquiavelic moves. He just wanted to go back in time with everything he knew then so he could undo every mistake he made so it would have been all better, but deep inside himself he knew that that would be all wrong. He realized, like Don Quijote did, that not all his thoughts were wright and that he may crash a lot windmills just if he kept pretending they were all giants.
He had broken the shell of the fake world Hesse described on "Demian" and he was now on the path of becaming a man, and nobody would stop him, not even himself. He has his eyes wide now and he is armed with the knowledge he has taken from every experience. He is prepared to really live now.